I had a meltdown of sorts that ruined my my first 4 hours of teaching. I hate, yep, hate it when an 8:00 meeting puts makes me crabby before the majority of my students have brushed their teeth.
At the beginning of the year, we, the teachers, were told that we would be using the Standards of Effective Instruction as our teacher evaluation tool. It was a huge change but we went along with it. For the past 4, yes, four weeks in PLC we have b eenstudying, dissecting, chewing and spitting out the rubric. We've even done homework for our PLC. I'm guessing I've put about 5 hours of meeting time and 5 hours of homework time into this. In addition, I've also presented part of one session.
It's a good rubric. I think it represents good teaching. I'll gladly be evaluated on it if it is used by someone who sees me teach more than just one time.
The problem is the Flip Flop that we are in the middle of right now. A week ago, our superintendent sent an email saying they reevaluated the program and have told us that we won't be committed to the new evaluation system until next school year.
In a meeting this morning, we were told that our principal was sitting in a principal's meeting where they were discussing whether the evaluation tool will be implemented this year or next.
Flip, Flop, Flip.
And then came my meltdown. There were only 6 of us in the room. I raised my hand said, "This is dumb." I can't stand being told one thing, then another, and then another. I can't run my classroom that way. My behavior expectations can't change from day to day. It just doesn't work. Why is it acceptable for people way above my pay scale to run the business side of education this way?
Flip, Flop, Flip, Meltdown.